i feel so ashamed.

i dunno where my bf is when everybody does. i don't know he was going out to dinner with colleagues until the colleagues tell me that he is. i dunno he's going to basketball games until he pops up at the mtr station. i dun even get an msn message from him for the whole day. i dun even get a call from him for the whole day. i dun even get a message from him when he leaves work everyday. he just walk past me and slightly wave his hand to me when he goes. he didn't even offer to buy me lunch when i worked through the whole lunch hour and he was just sitting there playing football manager 10 feet away from me. do i sound like his gf? i feel more like a piece of salt fish lying around. can anyone tell me if it's normal???????????????

i just wish i'm far far far far far away from him. coz then he will send me a message once in a while or give me a call everday. just once everyday. just to show that he cares.

i keep telling myself that he's like this ... this is his character. but when i come to think about it, he WASN'T like that.

maybe he really doesn't care.